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its been a while since i last blogged :) its already 7th today! 5more days till 12th. could not wait to leave for 2 freaking months. but on the other hand, i feel regret from leaving early. i know i can meet you up during your holidays but now, i guess better dont.

ok! im gonna make my schedule free today! sleep all i can then hang out more tmr! since its my last day at seria before going hongkong! gonna spend my 11/11/11 with my gang :)

HMM!

last 2 days,parents argued about idk wat stuff.wat they dun understand is the person who is really hurt is their kids.

family prob?

family prob just hmm bring me to hell!it really does.talked to mum bout it just now.and as the eldest grandchild i felt useless i cant do anything.

jasmine left on monday to canada.i miss her actually.eventho she guailan sometimes! D: every single one left.first pb and liphoong left,then classmates then now jasmine.how terrible life could be.but they have move on.further their study.other than all the best i cant say much but wait for their return.

sometimes i hope im the one who get injured during the accident.and i even hope that im the one who die from the accident!i just dun wan anyone getting injured.i feel guilty till i die!i really do!

seeing lisa getting better each day after the accident make me happy.but i still feel guilty inside my heart!

i torture myself with pain INSIDE MY HEART!idk why but it just pain.i wanna break my own record for not eating for 5days.gonna do it when im back home!sometimes i hope there is someone who i can talk to.but it seem like,nvm.no one might understand my situation.

OH YA!i didnt really smoke these days.i guess its a sign of quitting smoking.i just LOVE this feeling :) told the guys just now,next year my birthday they have to come seria to celebrate with me and YES!they agreed made me feeeel so happy!the drinking gang :) i just love them no matter what <3!

i might be stupid to take friendship VERY IMPORTANT but thats how it is!i've been thru too much.i've lost alot of friends during those fights back then.no matter who your,your important to me!without friends,there wont be happiness.without friends,there wont be anyone to share problem with.sometimes i just love hanging out with my ex school mates.cause when ever we talk back about our old times back in school,there is the place where i grew up,they are who i grew up with!they are just like my siblings.only problem is just that,they dun understand me.

problem?

first post of the year :) took me so long to blog again.i guess its a way to say out my own feeling.:x

mi your the one who bring me out from so much stuff.i trusted u so much.and months back i just wan u to listen me just like how i used to listen to u.but now,everything changed.u felt for ur sir,and u wan to get off from our friendship.i rmb u saying,we are a family.we face everything together and now,im facing every shit alone!im lucky i knew so much friends this year.if you want to keep this distance,go ahead.this will go on till u realize ur mistake and i will stay here waiting!

this year might be the WORST year i have to go thru.every single thing in life made me want to give up so badly.i thought of going out for a moment.oh well i will do it.its my plan and it will happen.my accident gave me a great change!REAL CHANGE!im sorry for those.sorry for making people worry bout me and even sorry to make lisa injured!this is the stage i never go thru even it passed one month already.it just dun make me move on.need to thanks those who accompany me thru the night,hazel,xiaograss,xbryan,grace,sheryn,ah yen,hung zai,billy.most important is jasmine who came over to see me awhile and left ALSO not forgetting teddy and weichun who walked all the way to ripas.i felt sorry for shwen,another information on her birthday.

im even more sorry if i felt for u!one thing i feel right now is,u dump ur old friend who USED to be close with u for a while and get close with the one u just knew!u used to text me.even u dun rpy i dun mind.and now?i have to make the move.this hurt me everytime! LIKE SERIOUSLY!i guess i should keep all my problem myself.cause no one will understand what i been thru!

i found myself much happier when im at bandar.spend whole day with teddy,she can make me laugh like an idiot and of course party which makes me not so moody.but if im out with brathas which is nyian,chian and joan,i will be more happier they just understand me more than anything!love them to the max!they are the one who i go to when im real sad.but i feel bad for not telling them my problem.could not disagree i miss that sohai hazel.hanging out with her could be stress but she never fail to cheer me when im sad.

been crying secretly these days i just dunno why.may be those pain im having now is indescribable.

now i really hope to be back home.i really really really wanna see you!but oh well,it might not happen.i might just hide myself in my room.cause its the place i can keep my mind off everything.staying inside my dark room,not knowing weather its day or night outside.i miss fishing where i can relax awhile when i caught a fish.talking with friends are the best.i miss my brathas! D: i miss liptheng~pb too!had a great chat with her yest.but i went off too early could not wait for her to on back.

just back not long from xfong's party!great indeed but all i think was you only!okay enough of bullshit.i will turn to my blog when im having prob :)

graduated

i'm officially graduated from high school.somehow right after graduation,i miss school.hahaha missing all the fun we made through,all the time we fight and came up with silly stuff,all the time we made miracle,we hang out,walking all the way to the toilet for nothing is our old and same routine.its a finally that we are out of st.margaret where suckish tcher stay and best tcher walks away to different school.not to mention anymore about tchers and all.lastly all i want for yellow house are,fight through what you guys can.win it back as the champion is yours.good luck guys :D and for year 11/form 4sss goood luck.its the best year for you to treasure next year.do not regret like your senior do.who did not have the chance to use the new building.make good use of it. :D

FINALLY GRADUATED!

i will never forget!

its you who made me rmb every single thing!this feeling suck the most!and you tend not to care about that.you can do wat ever u wan but i cant forget anything that had jus happened!and stop forcing me to forget smth that i cant!

hell~~

its hell result!sport day was great but result was not wat i want.it suck!it reli does.am i a great leader?i guess i didnt give in much as a leader i should bring my team upward not down ward FUCK!FUCK MY LIFE!

hmmmmmmmmmm

wow its unbelievable that i lost bball match again blue house rite?well,sorry team.i should have make it early.i'm reli sorry.but its okayy dey jus wan to start de game without me.but no matter wat,we work as a team,lose as a team.actually on that day,nth is more important than my law test.no matter if i win or lose that game,in my mind getting my license is IMPORTANT!and for dat fucker bitch err so called KONG NYUK LING?FUCK OFF!IF U THINK I WILL FAIL LAW TEST I GUESS UR DE1 WHO WILL FAIL FIRST.ACT AS A BITCH GO ON.I DO NTH TO U,SO DONT FORCE ME DO SMTH TO U RIGHT NOW!and for de fucker ppl who wan to start de time and de1 who never wan to call foul,U SERVE NO RIGHT IN SPORTMAN SHIP WANTED TO WORK IT OUT,U NEVER.U'VE LISTED IN MY LIST AND U SHALL BURN IN HELL!

sadddddd

26th - send pb n darren's flight awwww almost cryy but it was lucky we*shwen,mybro &me didnt cryy (: great to see them going for their dream as sk said,they are walking 3step ahead from us right now so yes i wil catch them up!

27th actually nothing reli happen.started to miss pb n darren sooo muchhh ): counting say by dayyy (:

28th staying at town since 4-9 (: i wont wish to be at home actually i thinks alot when am at home ): cried alot actually :S

todayyyyyyyyyy school as usual.and it freaking make me crazyyyyy i need holidayyyy cant i?

day 4 and 80dayssss left (:
18th birthday wil be a blast!
pb,you will have to celebrate wit me when u get back HAHAHA KIDDINGGGG take care der (: i miss you guys LOTS!

over

i guess every single things should be over
olevel this year and what i want right now is concentrate.
i would wan to get all Os for my olevel.
my memory start to get worst each dayy.
hardly can rmb thing which ppl ask me to do.
hmm lets see what happen recently?
lol
i dun rmb
hahaha
extra classes starts this week and am freaking tired of it.
but what ever am taking it worth for my future.
right after olevel,
i will be moving to bandar
well,i will be finding work there and start to face the world right now
no time should be waste.

mi,haven seen u for like alongggggggggggg timeee miss mi ehh
haha.

pb~~~ idk if u will be reading or not but jus feel like typing out haha.i will surely miss you more den you do when u leave to aus ): awww i rmb u cried yest.cheer alright.avthing will be alright.u got like 8days left ): i wont forget all the time we spend (: i just cant wait to see you again :S

this isn't the end <3<3<3 ;)

Starting off to face the day
Seconds away from a life with endless...
Torment my mind with the thoughts of a beginning
To show you just what I feel
To decipher what is real

There's just so much to be said
So much is running through my head
In a time staggered on the end
Maybe now can we pretend?

For a second I felt so brave
Flowing through fault lines
Wearin on my mind
Weathering
Pulsating
Technicalities set you off the stage and when you see me now and then
There will be no exchange of hands
Scratch the plans

There's just so much to be said
So much is running through my head
In a time staggered on the end
Maybe now can we pretend?

This isn't the end

There's just so much to be said
So much is running through my head
In a time staggered on the end
Maybe now can we pretend?

love drunk <3<3

Top down in the summer sun
The day we met was like a hit-and-run
And I still taste it on my tongue (taste it on my tongue)
The sky was burning up like fireworks
You made me want you oh so bad it hurt
But girl in case you haven’t heard

I used to be love drunk, but now I’m hung over
I’ll love you forever, forever is over
We used to kiss all night, now it’s just a bar fight
So don’t call me crying
Say hello to goodbye
Cause just one sip would make me sick
I used to be love drunk, but now I’m hung over
I’ll love you forever, but now it’s over

Hot sweat and blurry eyes
We’re spinning round a rollercoaster ride
The world stuck in black and white
You drove me crazy every time we touched
Now I’m so broken that I can’t get up
Oh girl you make me such a lush

I used to be love drunk, but now I’m hung over
I’ll love you forever, forever is over
We used to kiss all night, now it’s just a bar fight
So don’t call me crying
Say hello to goodbye
Cause just one sip would make me sick
I used to be love drunk, but now I’m hung over
I’ll love you forever, but now it’s over

All the time I wasted on you
All the bullshit you put me through
Checking into rehab cause everything that we had
Didn’t mean a thing to you
I used to be love drunk, but now I’m hung over
I’ll love you forever, but now I'm sober

I used to be love drunk, but now I’m hung over
I’ll love you forever, forever is over
We used to kiss all night, now it’s just a bar fight
So don’t call me crying
Say hello to goodbye
Cause just one sip would make me sick
I used to be love drunk, but now I’m hung over
I’ll love you forever, but now it’s over

Now it’s over
Can taste it on my tongue
Now It’s over…