GetToMyLifeeeee =)

:D

2011-11-07T05:37:00.002+08:00

its been a while since i last blogged :) its already 7th today! 5more days till 12th. could not wait to leave for 2 freaking months. but on the other hand, i feel regret from leaving early. i know i can meet you up during your holidays but now, i guess better dont.

ok! im gonna make my schedule free today! sleep all i can then hang out more tmr! since its my last day at seria before going hongkong! gonna spend my 11/11/11 with my gang :)

HMM!

2011-08-03T21:08:00.001+08:00

last 2 days,parents argued about idk wat stuff.wat they dun understand is the person who is really hurt is their kids.

family prob?

2011-07-30T03:14:00.001+08:00

family prob just hmm bring me to hell!it really does.talked to mum bout it just now.and as the eldest grandchild i felt useless i cant do anything.

2011-07-29T04:29:00.002+08:00

jasmine left on monday to canada.i miss her actually.eventho she guailan sometimes! D: every single one left.first pb and liphoong left,then classmates then now jasmine.how terrible life could be.but they have move on.further their study.other than all the best i cant say much but wait for their return.

sometimes i hope im the one who get injured during the accident.and i even hope that im the one who die from the accident!i just dun wan anyone getting injured.i feel guilty till i die!i really do!

seeing lisa getting better each day after the accident make me happy.but i still feel guilty inside my heart!

i torture myself with pain INSIDE MY HEART!idk why but it just pain.i wanna break my own record for not eating for 5days.gonna do it when im back home!sometimes i hope there is someone who i can talk to.but it seem like,nvm.no one might understand my situation.

OH YA!i didnt really smoke these days.i guess its a sign of quitting smoking.i just LOVE this feeling :) told the guys just now,next year my birthday they have to come seria to celebrate with me and YES!they agreed made me feeeel so happy!the drinking gang :) i just love them no matter what <3!

i might be stupid to take friendship VERY IMPORTANT but thats how it is!i've been thru too much.i've lost alot of friends during those fights back then.no matter who your,your important to me!without friends,there wont be happiness.without friends,there wont be anyone to share problem with.sometimes i just love hanging out with my ex school mates.cause when ever we talk back about our old times back in school,there is the place where i grew up,they are who i grew up with!they are just like my siblings.only problem is just that,they dun understand me.

problem?

2011-07-29T03:54:00.005+08:00

first post of the year :) took me so long to blog again.i guess its a way to say out my own feeling.:x

mi your the one who bring me out from so much stuff.i trusted u so much.and months back i just wan u to listen me just like how i used to listen to u.but now,everything changed.u felt for ur sir,and u wan to get off from our friendship.i rmb u saying,we are a family.we face everything together and now,im facing every shit alone!im lucky i knew so much friends this year.if you want to keep this distance,go ahead.this will go on till u realize ur mistake and i will stay here waiting!

this year might be the WORST year i have to go thru.every single thing in life made me want to give up so badly.i thought of going out for a moment.oh well i will do it.its my plan and it will happen.my accident gave me a great change!REAL CHANGE!im sorry for those.sorry for making people worry bout me and even sorry to make lisa injured!this is the stage i never go thru even it passed one month already.it just dun make me move on.need to thanks those who accompany me thru the night,hazel,xiaograss,xbryan,grace,sheryn,ah yen,hung zai,billy.most important is jasmine who came over to see me awhile and left ALSO not forgetting teddy and weichun who walked all the way to ripas.i felt sorry for shwen,another information on her birthday.

im even more sorry if i felt for u!one thing i feel right now is,u dump ur old friend who USED to be close with u for a while and get close with the one u just knew!u used to text me.even u dun rpy i dun mind.and now?i have to make the move.this hurt me everytime! LIKE SERIOUSLY!i guess i should keep all my problem myself.cause no one will understand what i been thru!

i found myself much happier when im at bandar.spend whole day with teddy,she can make me laugh like an idiot and of course party which makes me not so moody.but if im out with brathas which is nyian,chian and joan,i will be more happier they just understand me more than anything!love them to the max!they are the one who i go to when im real sad.but i feel bad for not telling them my problem.could not disagree i miss that sohai hazel.hanging out with her could be stress but she never fail to cheer me when im sad.

been crying secretly these days i just dunno why.may be those pain im having now is indescribable.

now i really hope to be back home.i really really really wanna see you!but oh well,it might not happen.i might just hide myself in my room.cause its the place i can keep my mind off everything.staying inside my dark room,not knowing weather its day or night outside.i miss fishing where i can relax awhile when i caught a fish.talking with friends are the best.i miss my brathas! D: i miss liptheng~pb too!had a great chat with her yest.but i went off too early could not wait for her to on back.

just back not long from xfong's party!great indeed but all i think was you only!okay enough of bullshit.i will turn to my blog when im having prob :)

graduated

2010-11-28T16:00:00.002+08:00

i'm officially graduated from high school.somehow right after graduation,i miss school.hahaha missing all the fun we made through,all the time we fight and came up with silly stuff,all the time we made miracle,we hang out,walking all the way to the toilet for nothing is our old and same routine.its a finally that we are out of st.margaret where suckish tcher stay and best tcher walks away to different school.not to mention anymore about tchers and all.lastly all i want for yellow house are,fight through what you guys can.win it back as the champion is yours.good luck guys :D and for year 11/form 4sss goood luck.its the best year for you to treasure next year.do not regret like your senior do.who did not have the chance to use the new building.make good use of it. :D

FINALLY GRADUATED!

i will never forget!

2010-09-28T20:18:00.002+08:00

its you who made me rmb every single thing!this feeling suck the most!and you tend not to care about that.you can do wat ever u wan but i cant forget anything that had jus happened!and stop forcing me to forget smth that i cant!

hell~~

2010-07-05T20:45:00.001+08:00

its hell result!sport day was great but result was not wat i want.it suck!it reli does.am i a great leader?i guess i didnt give in much as a leader i should bring my team upward not down ward FUCK!FUCK MY LIFE!

hmmmmmmmmmm

2010-05-07T01:27:00.002+08:00

wow its unbelievable that i lost bball match again blue house rite?well,sorry team.i should have make it early.i'm reli sorry.but its okayy dey jus wan to start de game without me.but no matter wat,we work as a team,lose as a team.actually on that day,nth is more important than my law test.no matter if i win or lose that game,in my mind getting my license is IMPORTANT!and for dat fucker bitch err so called KONG NYUK LING?FUCK OFF!IF U THINK I WILL FAIL LAW TEST I GUESS UR DE1 WHO WILL FAIL FIRST.ACT AS A BITCH GO ON.I DO NTH TO U,SO DONT FORCE ME DO SMTH TO U RIGHT NOW!and for de fucker ppl who wan to start de time and de1 who never wan to call foul,U SERVE NO RIGHT IN SPORTMAN SHIP WANTED TO WORK IT OUT,U NEVER.U'VE LISTED IN MY LIST AND U SHALL BURN IN HELL!

sadddddd

2010-01-29T21:41:00.002+08:00

26th - send pb n darren's flight awwww almost cryy but it was lucky we*shwen,mybro &me didnt cryy (: great to see them going for their dream as sk said,they are walking 3step ahead from us right now so yes i wil catch them up!

27th actually nothing reli happen.started to miss pb n darren sooo muchhh ): counting say by dayyy (:

28th staying at town since 4-9 (: i wont wish to be at home actually i thinks alot when am at home ): cried alot actually :S

todayyyyyyyyyy school as usual.and it freaking make me crazyyyyy i need holidayyyy cant i?

day 4 and 80dayssss left (:
18th birthday wil be a blast!
pb,you will have to celebrate wit me when u get back HAHAHA KIDDINGGGG take care der (: i miss you guys LOTS!

over

2010-01-18T18:17:00.002+08:00

i guess every single things should be over
olevel this year and what i want right now is concentrate.
i would wan to get all Os for my olevel.
my memory start to get worst each dayy.
hardly can rmb thing which ppl ask me to do.
hmm lets see what happen recently?
lol
i dun rmb
hahaha
extra classes starts this week and am freaking tired of it.
but what ever am taking it worth for my future.
right after olevel,
i will be moving to bandar
well,i will be finding work there and start to face the world right now
no time should be waste.

mi,haven seen u for like alongggggggggggg timeee miss mi ehh
haha.

pb~~~ idk if u will be reading or not but jus feel like typing out haha.i will surely miss you more den you do when u leave to aus ): awww i rmb u cried yest.cheer alright.avthing will be alright.u got like 8days left ): i wont forget all the time we spend (: i just cant wait to see you again :S

this isn't the end <3<3<3 ;)

2009-10-15T13:39:00.000+08:00

Starting off to face the day
Seconds away from a life with endless...
Torment my mind with the thoughts of a beginning
To show you just what I feel
To decipher what is real

There's just so much to be said
So much is running through my head
In a time staggered on the end
Maybe now can we pretend?

For a second I felt so brave
Flowing through fault lines
Wearin on my mind
Weathering
Pulsating
Technicalities set you off the stage and when you see me now and then
There will be no exchange of hands
Scratch the plans

There's just so much to be said
So much is running through my head
In a time staggered on the end
Maybe now can we pretend?

This isn't the end

There's just so much to be said
So much is running through my head
In a time staggered on the end
Maybe now can we pretend?

love drunk <3<3

2009-10-15T13:38:00.002+08:00

Top down in the summer sun
The day we met was like a hit-and-run
And I still taste it on my tongue (taste it on my tongue)
The sky was burning up like fireworks
You made me want you oh so bad it hurt
But girl in case you haven’t heard

I used to be love drunk, but now I’m hung over
I’ll love you forever, forever is over
We used to kiss all night, now it’s just a bar fight
So don’t call me crying
Say hello to goodbye
Cause just one sip would make me sick
I used to be love drunk, but now I’m hung over
I’ll love you forever, but now it’s over

Hot sweat and blurry eyes
We’re spinning round a rollercoaster ride
The world stuck in black and white
You drove me crazy every time we touched
Now I’m so broken that I can’t get up
Oh girl you make me such a lush

I used to be love drunk, but now I’m hung over
I’ll love you forever, forever is over
We used to kiss all night, now it’s just a bar fight
So don’t call me crying
Say hello to goodbye
Cause just one sip would make me sick
I used to be love drunk, but now I’m hung over
I’ll love you forever, but now it’s over

All the time I wasted on you
All the bullshit you put me through
Checking into rehab cause everything that we had
Didn’t mean a thing to you
I used to be love drunk, but now I’m hung over
I’ll love you forever, but now I'm sober

I used to be love drunk, but now I’m hung over
I’ll love you forever, forever is over
We used to kiss all night, now it’s just a bar fight
So don’t call me crying
Say hello to goodbye
Cause just one sip would make me sick
I used to be love drunk, but now I’m hung over
I’ll love you forever, but now it’s over

Now it’s over
Can taste it on my tongue
Now It’s over…

you belong with me

2009-10-15T13:38:00.001+08:00

You're on the phone with your girlfriend, She's upset
She's going off about something that you said
She doesnt get your humour like I do

I'm in the room, its a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesnt like
And she'll never know your story like I do

But she wears short skirts, I wear t-shirts
She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming bout the day when you'll wake up and find
That what you're lookin for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me
You belong with me

Walkin the streets with you in your worn out jeans
I cant help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on the park bench thinkin to myself
Hey isnt this easy?

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I havent seen it in awhile, since she brought you down
You say you find I know you better than that
Hey, Whatcha doing with a girl like that?

She wears high heels, I wear sneakers
She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming bout the day when you'll wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standin by, waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know that?
You belong with me
You belong with me

Oh I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're about to cry
I know your favorite songs and you tell me about your dreams
I think I know where you belong. I think I know it's with me.

Can't you see that I'm the one who understand you?
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standing by or waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know that
You belong with me
You belong with me

Have you ever thought just maybe
You belong with me
You belong with me

let go <3

2009-10-15T13:35:00.000+08:00

Drink up baby down,
Mmmm, are you in or are you out?
Leave your things behind
'cause it's all going off without you,
Excuse me, too busy you're writing your tragedy,
These mishaps, you bubble wrap,
when you've no idea what you're like.

So let go, let go, jump in,
Oh well, whatcha waiting for,
It's alright,
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown,
Let go, l-let go, just get in,
Oh, it's so amazing here,
It's alright,
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown.

It gains the more it gives,
And then it rises with the fall,
So hand me that remote,
Can't you see that all that stuff's a sideshow.

Such boundless pleasure,
We've no time for later now,
You can't await your own arrival,
You've 20 seconds to comply,

So let go, let go, jump in,
Oh well, whatcha waiting for,
It's alright,
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown,
Let go, l-let go, just get in,
Oh, it's so amazing here,
It's alright,
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown.

So let go, jump in,
Oh well, whatcha waiting for,
It's alright,
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown,
Let go, l-let go, just get in,
Oh, it's so amazing here,
It's alright,
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown.

The breakdown.
'Cause theres beauty in the breakdown.
It's so amazing here,
'cause theres beauty in the breakdown

cheer up please =s

2009-10-12T20:22:00.002+08:00

lalala..
not in de mood..
hurmpp..
has been urm crying?since jus now haha..
i noe its lame
but dis HURT FREAKING LOTS..
seriously,
my death or life does not concern bout u..
u choosed dat person,
go ahead..
it does not concern bout me
so,
why do u have to say such things to hurt me?
FUCK OFF REALITY!
if we human are making de reality,
why dun we make a better ending of reality?
happy ending does not mean its happy every time..
living happily does not mean dey are living without pain..
world are round,sky are blue
and human are jerk who will not face reality..
pain does not come from outside,
but it comes from inside..
lol
why am i linking avthing in der?
loooool
wat everrrrr
life aint a easy road to walk on..
but it is even easier to walk on when you YOUNG!
I MISS CHILDHOOD,WHERE NO STRESS ARE ALLOW ;)

misses

2009-10-10T18:46:00.002+08:00

woots
last day for all de form5s 2dayy
hahahaha
gonna miss av single of dem ;)
dey are who i been thru wit for a year and of course,
dey are still who dey are..
no matter in school or out of de school
dey still make de fun out of me HAHAHA
anywayy..
people who i will actually miss is FORM5ARTS
hahhaa de gang dat make me feel better in or out ;)
esp syasya AKA de maid back in form3 HAHAHA
as for 5sci..
LOOOOL
i had no comment over dem..
but some of dem are like my besties since i was young
so,i will still gonna miss dem..
eventho we are far apart,
friendship remain under every situation..
anyway,

GOODLUCK TO YOU GUYS IN OLEVEL

ESPECIALLY YOU CHOU MI ;)

chou miii, haha dis will be specially for u ;)
no matter how much we argued,bu suang and everything
in de end,we solved it wit a smile and i dunno why we solve it randomly
hahahha
wit wat am i to u,
we wil remain as family ;);)
you might control me as much you think,
but somehow
de effect was great..
hahaha altho i hate it sometimes
but i noe wat's my weakness so i bear it on my mind
2week plus to ur olevel
and now ur working hard
so as ur gal,
i would wan to say
put everything aside..
life or death does not concern bout u
wat concern bout u now is ur olevel..
i can say u gave in soooo much for dis family already
but mi,
its not de time to care it 1st
ur studies come now..
soooo,
GOOOOOOOODLUCK ;) <3

;)

2009-10-08T19:12:00.003+08:00

20++days to final exam which am working hard for it ;)

55days to KL which i cant wait for it..

gonna spend my dayyyssss der and put off my stress ;)

am reli damn bored right now..

wanted to go out

but der is lik NO ONE TO GO OUT WIT

FUCKKK

hmmmmmm

woots mi at her guy house now

haha ok i didnt care tho..

am more into my movie right now (Y)

wanna finish up my movie,bio notes which am missing out and AMATHS CLASSWORK which am lazy to do in class..

haha u cant blame thoo..

cause am given free lesson

so i rather rest more.. ;)

okay

wat to say nooow?

idk le..

hahahaha..

as i say jus now i didnt miss u but nowwww..

am ol over u..

downloading soooo much songs now hahaha due to

MY BROTHER NOT AT HOME ; which is (Y)(Y)

hahahha

is der any extra class 2moro?O.O

lalala..i hope der is!

i dun wanna stay at home due to IDK wat hahahha ;)

i like both de pic,2nd pic was more meaningful ;)

confused

2009-10-08T17:18:00.002+08:00

ok!
make it clear
i got confused over my life right now..
and seriously!!!!
haiisss..
i need a day out from dis place..
i wish i was not born here..
lalala..
all i can say now is..
i will give up and focus on wat's on my hand..
talked bout future in tuition yesterday..
a GREAT GREAT GREAT lesson indeed..
i had to choose my path right now,
so do everyone!
it will be TOOOO late if u choose it after form 5
as TIME PASS EVERY SECONDS!
i could c how my old self..
and YES!its way different from my way now..
cause,i've changed
i learned how to protect myself..
i learned how to walk out of stress without and piece of shit!
and YES!
i learned HOW TO LET GO LOVE LIFE
and focus on my studies!!
my greatest archive now is..
not missing u since de last time i met u..
i wont i will not miss u later
cause things will pop out in mind if u think of dem..
woots
ive tried to focus on a blank white paper..and
it make me focus on soooo much things
its relaxing
and it release my stress
somehow,
phone will be silence from 2day onwards
dose who wanna find me huahuahua.
wait till i check my phone den
i will rpy..
if not i'm sorry
;)
i will be studing for my final now..
i will prove to dose who jusge me!
listen to dis song
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C7ttnT5OLuc
am sorry if ur a emo,
but dis song reli nice..
am not longer a emo
and YES DIS SONG IS ABIT RASCIST!
HAHAHAHA
(Y) should have thanks korr for introducing it to me ;)
huhuhuh
<3ss

Bubbly Lyrics by Colbie Caillat

2009-09-29T17:29:00.001+08:00

I've been awake for a while now
you've got me feelin like a child now
cause every time i see your bubbly face
i get the tinglies in a silly place

It starts in my toes
makes me crinkle my nose
where ever it goes i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go

The rain is fallin on my window pane
but we are hidin in a safer place
under the covers stayin dry and warm
you give me feelins that i adore

It starts in my toes
makes me crinkle my nose
where ever it goes
i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go

What am i gonna say
when you make me feel this way
I just... mmmmmmmmmmm

It starts in my toes
makes me crinkle my nose
where ever it goes
i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go

I've been asleep for a while now
You tucked me in just like a child now
Cause every time you hold me in your arms
Im comfortable enough to feel your warmth

It starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feelin shows
Cause you make me smile
Baby just take your time
Holdin me tight

Where ever, where ever, where ever you go
Where ever, where ever, where ever you go.....

21 guns <3

2009-09-29T17:18:00.001+08:00

Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away and you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside,you're in ruins

One, 21 Guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 Guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I ...

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass and the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last, you're in ruins

One, 21 Guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 Guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I ...

Did you try to live on your own?
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand to close to the fire?
Like a liar looking from forgiveness from a stone
When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died,you're in ruins

One, 21 Guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 Guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I ...

school reopen

2009-09-28T14:35:00.002+08:00

first day of school
and no electric for 2 whole hours
which was WTFFF!!!
got back my physic paper and poa paper
both were lik LALALALALALALA
could not do much tho..
seriously,
not my fault for dat damn physic paper
it jus dat,
JUSTIN never know how to mark my paper
even my answer was a lil right,
i was being marked wrong!
wtf
poa wasss kalok
i never tho i could pass too..
looool
all thanks to my paper 1 for saving me tho..
hurmppp
saw vodka jus now..
hahhaha it was a WOOOOW when i saw him
cause its lik 7.30 he is in school and usually he slept till 10 or 11 ehh..
hahaha
am off to tuition noww =)

nitdm

2009-09-26T20:01:00.002+08:00

not in the damn mood~
yeah dats wat i felt right now
got scolded since EARLY morning till NOW!
FUCK!!
i wish mi was here chatting wit me
and nahh she wasn't on at all..
loool
i guess she was busy with her guy...
lalalalala
am left alone tho..
lalalalalala
nth big deal..
lool
wat ever shit happen,
i wont stand by myself
can tell me why?
lols
i need a day or may be forever day off from useless life..
here come again all dose scolding
wat did i do wrong right now?
all i did right now is sitting down SHUTTING MY FUCKING MOUTH
and I GET SCOLDED BADLY
wat de fuck right now?
i wish de cutter i bought jus now
was mine!
so i can cut myself into pieces!!!!!
freaking pieces!!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
can any1 freaking chill me?

imy :(

2009-09-21T20:57:00.002+08:00

yesterday night,or i can say dis morning
my couz,shwen, got drunk!damn
i stay awake to look after her..
hmmm
ok de best part of a person getting drunk is,
dey do watever to deir love one
even express deir feeling
so do my couz..
hahaha..
she text her other friend instead of de1 she love..hahaha..
which is a mistake i know..
she felt asleep around 4smth to 4.30..
hahaha..
den she woke up around 6 smth to check her phone and
say who sent dose msg
den me n my bro was like
HUH?ur de1 who sent it
hahahhaa
den cont sleep till 9.30 and WTH
i over slept
hahahahaha..
ok bla bla bla happened..
lazzzyyy sayyy
huhuhu
went training and
hahah
i was lazy for it..
cant blame me..
=P
den came home shower,everything
and went out wit my couz..
hahaha
den blablablabla..
am lazy nowww..
playing facebook status and chatting wit mii
hahah =P
I MISS YOUUU :S

weird dream

2009-09-20T12:31:00.002+08:00

wow..dis could be de best weird dream ever..
if this happen in real life
(Y)
1 thing for sure i could get off dat feeling
and be with someone
huahuahua
damn bro woke me up from dat dream..
nvm
it jus a dream
and it will be a dream after all..

nitm

2009-09-20T12:15:00.002+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHH
been nitm since last nite..
lol
stupid stupid stupid!
be4 sleep
randomly go msg ppl
lol..
idk wat happen to me..
when i woke up and check my phone,
its like OMG!when did i sent dose msg?
am i really crazy already
lol!!!
siennn
seriously idk wat happen in life..
i guess i should get off right now before i got crazy!

for u mii..

2009-09-16T21:27:00.004+08:00

ur de best mi ever..
loving u for 4 years plus
and when it finally over
u still hurt me
being ur bi for so many years oledi
i dunno wat i can do now
UR FUCKING IGNORING me now..
i hate dis feeling and it make me crazyy
seriously i cried badly for dis..
and yesh
u hurt me badly now..
mii
i reli hope u can listen to me..
lol
but u choosed not to..
am being dump by u
am feeling alone now..
reli alone..
u didnt wanna rpy me
and dats it..
it hurts..
once again
i've heard dis sound again
its been 2years ago since i last heard..
now......
once again......
if blogging could cheer me
i will..
thanks for being de great mi for me..
u noe i wan u to be happy
and yes forcing u to break wit him
is cause HE REALLY NOT DE RIGHT GUY FOR YOU
EVEN IF ITS DATING
HE STILL NOT
if he is
i oledi accept him earlier
not till now still hate him
u should noe
it need more energy to hate a person..
lol
its ur choice now listen or not..

look all de silly things v had been thru..

lol..de best mi ever who actuallyy understand me more den all de other..

having u wit me owes was fun..wat i dun wanna lose is a true friend like u..ur owes and only one dat stand by me when am sad..cheering me like no one ever did..

evil family still de1 i care de most..looking thru memories,being together with evil fam are de most happiest time i get..i get to share avthing wit guys..no matter how sad i'm u n sis cheers me..all de silliest thing v did can never erase from me..thanks alot both of u..

looking thru dose pics makes me smile awhile..

holidayys

2009-09-15T14:05:00.002+08:00

2weeks of holidays
i dunno wat to do for dis whole 2 weeks
am bored!!!!
haiiiiss
MY TEETH STILL HURT!!
sien..
i reli dunno wat happen recently!
HAIZ!!

o9o9o9

2009-09-09T14:13:00.002+08:00

a day with pain..
FUCKING school jus now nada electric
wth!!
damn hot la!!!
mahai!!
diao jus now oledi freaking no mood
den now mi again
MAHAI!
fuck fuck fuck!
WAT A FUCKING DAY!!!

hurt

2009-09-07T18:34:00.002+08:00

LOL
been not in de mood for 2days liao
acting aint fun at all..
LOL..
idk wat seriously happen..
i wan avthing back to normal..
and seriously normal..
lol..
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i reli rlei reli wanna relax lo!
and i meant it!
will someone jus cheer me?
made me forget de past
lolll

cheer..

2009-09-06T01:14:00.002+08:00

Zhen : CHEER alright..avthing will be over once you wake up..as u woke up it will be a new day once again..so take your past as ur mistake and correct it for ur future..need me jus call me i'll lend my ear for you and shoulder for you to cry on..friends meant alot to me so your my friend and am willing to help.CHEER UP ALRIGHT..

forever?

2009-09-05T22:34:00.002+08:00

will forever be with you?
if your facing the fact,its no
but if your facing reasons,
YES
it does..
human disappear from the world
but feeling never..
it will become history..
hurmppp
lalalalala nth to blog hahaha..
2days without internet seriously kills me
hahhahaha..
back to topic..
had my chem 2 and malay 2 today..
which is like ALRIGHT
huhu
school was fun with friends
but bad with BITCH it aint fun at all.
" true friends are the one who sit beside you in the park,swinging the swing with you yet he/she didnt say anything but feel what had stuck in your heart."

exam=hell

2009-09-02T21:56:00.002+08:00

exam jus sucks for me
dun even have my heart to study
haiz..
what da park is seriously happening on me?
wthhhh
SMSS FORM 4SCIENCE
GOOD LUCK FOR 2MORO'S BIOLOGY
wakakaka
biology is hell for us and make it heaven 2moro
=P
you,you&you
ur de1 am missing out from life

never gonna return

2009-09-01T20:29:00.002+08:00

i miss von..
seriouslyyy
missing out a laughter now a person who can teach me POA..
what is gone,is gone forever..
i dunno wat to say
been down since last nite till now..
den yest got fever
got well dis morning but who noes
come again dis afternoon
exam mode right now
i dun even have heart to study anything right now.
i got POA 2 2moro and i dun even understand a shit bout it..
haiiiss
need someone to teach me POA ahhhh!!!
siennnn =s
hurmp
YOU,YOU,YOU
yesh you!
I MISS YOU =s
ahh am off now better revise amaths

boooooo

2009-08-09T11:09:00.002+08:00

SCM lost to Dear Boy last night..
lol
unexpected game neither..
dey could have win..
but never mind guys
by right you guys won =)
saw weiming,kelz and chi zheng cried yest..
which is..
URM
unusual lo..
could understand why dey cry la =)
cheer guys
next target
try try try to win blitz..
u guys could actually win lots of game de..
but instead u guys made it a bad experience..
hurmppp
yest nite was DAMN sao..
cause of mi!
mahaiiii
say 7 wil reach court but instead she reach court at 8 almost 8.30
diuuuuu
wait for my 100plus till wan die liao la..
fuck!
nvm its over
i try not to think le..
lol..

life sucks

2009-08-07T19:09:00.003+08:00

wat de park seriously happening dis few days?
AHHHHH
i wanna get out of dis fucking world!!!
fuckkkk
i wanna shout!!
i wanna rest my mind!
i seriously need a break..
i dunno why,
no1 actually understands me..
lol..
may be i dun need any1 to understand..
well its right i guess..
idk why,
i might be a stupid again..
i fall for you once again..
may be i haven give up at all..
loving u was tough
i been thru avpart to love u..
from hiding feelings till exposing den till gone..
now
let me be de1 who loves u only..
let me be de1 who cheer u..
life can be up and down every single day
but,
once i met u
out of a sudden,
i met back my smile..
dat smile made me strong =)
i hardly smile recently..
except acting..
well..
am trying to make my self smile and cheer liao de..
but it seem to lik
i fail..
being wit bandar ppl yest,
i found out dat i can dun hide my own feeling..
but too bad..
life is jus one way trip..i cant have back de time againnn

sick =(

2009-08-05T13:29:00.002+08:00

haiiss sien
suddenly sick la!
sian!
yest received a msg from raine about de change in schedule
change to 2moro =(
vs muare gas!
OMG!!!
scare enough..
den wed vs rano Adidas =(
haiiss
ankle got lil sprain liao..haiiisss

match

2009-08-02T09:39:00.002+08:00

bball match later =(
feeling urmmmm
nervous ahhh
helppp
=(((
hmmm u u u u u u u i miss you
haven really have my mood backkk
i dun understand why human like to play a role in 2 relation..
stupid aint it?
well i dun have right to control any1 but my self..
if u do make dat mistake
just fucking dun let me noe..
i hate dose kind of ppl!
lolss
*off to bball court =) den off to bandar for match =)

tired =)

2009-07-25T21:58:00.002+08:00

been busy over my studies recently haven go time to even blog
huhu
i miss av single things back in de past
reli hope i can go back past dat i wont made dis mistake
to make dao ' di n mi ' almost break
FUCK
i hate dat fucking guy mirul!
mahhhaaaaiii!
nvmm
back to avthing happening
it suck!

;)

2009-07-14T21:12:00.002+08:00

huhuhu
train LCP jus now
hahaha
hardcore training
well dey will improve soon
huhu
i miss i miss i miss
getting myself tired huhu
=)
am damn tired right now
but i cant sleep
idk whyyy
huhu
not going for gaming liao
now set game play for dem =)

mind?

2009-07-12T20:59:00.002+08:00

fuck!
i seriously dunno wat de heck am thinking right now
haiiss
no mood liao
from ok mood dropped to sucker mood
fuck la
huhu jess,wen gave up liao
(Y)
less down a burden
but den hor!!!!
damn another 1
haiiisss
i wanna be with de moon that shine the earth at night

huhu

2009-07-12T00:07:00.002+08:00

school school school
huhu
cause of school,
i had realized that my feeling toward you had fade away huhu
i will be busy with school stuff and of course
not letting our friendship down huhu..
love is something which i wont touch till i leave aus next year*hopefully its approve*
huhu
cant wait to go aus..
i need a break from school
huhu
i found out dat i can actually smile for no reason now
HUHU
damn it!!!
1 of my friend kena h1n1 maaaa
it wasssss lucky dat i didnt get toward her few days back huhu
if not am at hosp right now
=)
huhu

damn results LOL

2009-07-08T13:07:00.001+08:00

LOL
my result was FUCK!
lol
only subs i got B was POA
fuck other subjects
FUCK
I FLUNK MY DMATHS
FUCK MAN!
idk why!
fuck fuck fuck!!!!

feeling of letting go =(

2009-07-07T02:14:00.002+08:00

seriously
i never understand how hurt was dat feeling until u treat me damn cold
i could never fall asleep by my self..
i have to look at my phone over n over again
i jus dunno why
i know its time for me to let go..
i noe its time for me to let u free from my heart
but the feeling never goes..
i dunno weather we are still friends or not
i feel myself being stupid..
i guess
i should go aus next year wit a better offer
and over der i got my own ability to search for my ownself
not de crazy one but de good one
u said love cant be force
but do u noe de story?
i guess u dont..
lol
i repeated de story to myself over n over again
and i jus dun understand why ppl think dat forced lover never end up longer..
by my experience,
yes forced lover end up more longer and more lovely
cause eventually dey found out each other were de one dat dey are finding..
true love never appear but u have to catch for ur true love..
do not let go because it never happen but stay strong because in de world der is always chance
" its not the star that hold your density,it you,yourself who holds it"
i was being lectured by my dream
and yes i agreed av part of it..
being accompanied by jess since yest till now
and to say de truth i felt nth..
i felt she is jus a friend to me..
a friend dat be here whenever i need a ear to listen to my words,a shoulder to cry on,a laughter on my face,a cold joke to smile at
she said am stupid
yes am stupid
i used 4years to gave up my previous relation
so der's nth big deal for me..
4years is smth i wasted..
and am not going to waste another 4years..
u wont noe how de feeling of letting go a person who u jus fall for..
ppl ask me do i believe love at 1st sight?
my ans for dem love at 1st sight always argue over a small stuff..if u dun trust me u can jus find dose kind of ppl..
ask dem how much dey had been argued since dey were 2gether..
some asked me,what bout forced lover?
i can surely tell dat
dey tressure each other more than love at 1st sight lover..
forced lover ends and having a great friendship..
i really dunno why i noe so much bout relation
well
may be i faced too much..
de word LOVE can never described if you can,explain..
no one will ever agree on wat u explain =)
1 stupid thing human always ask is
" what do you love bout me?","why do you love me?"
love has no reason..once our fate reach,it stays
once its gone
understand it
and change..
whatever happen
i dun think i can fully give up
or even not giving up
might just delete dis blog sooon
gonna back to my emo blog =)
http://cmuii134.blogspot.com/
haha
think twice be4 going back der..
=)
seriously i never felt inlove be4
may be i do and dis might be de 2nd time?
no one noes
neither me
=)
its 2.53am
and am awake lol
later hve to go to school again..
i bet i wil fall asleep in clas due to all boring subject
or may be skip school again
due to cough,flu
fever was alright now..
seriously i miss you =(
ooppss i should not say dat lol
damn i cant sleep
jus speak out avthing from my heart la =)
lalalala
am happy dat u actually found someone dat loves u
i didnt feel hurt or wat
but felt
weird by de way u treat me =(
seriously cant we jus
urm
be back friends?
do hope to get dis ans too =x
my phone is silence damn silence right now
hahaha
no one caress
since i only msg wit jess and mi..
so =)
its 3am right now..
3 more hours i had to wake my couz up and get ready for school =(
LOL
who actually cares?
no one do..
people comes and go
foot step left and its being washed away..
how i wish i was being chopped to death LOL
a scar at my back and a scar on my tummy (Y)
it hurts but i felt nth..
lol
i miss everysingle moment in de beach..
i wanna go to de beach
i jus dunno how to describe de feeling i had right now..
can someone bring me to de beach?
lol
zoom off =)
cheers
edited =)
5.18am and am still awake
could not fall asleep by myself
=)
wakakaka
love being alone in de room but not out de room
hahaha
am lame i noe
wakakakaka
am not loving my life
lol
am loving my new phone =)
N78 <3 awww =)
but loving u more =(
lols
5.22am
body temp 39.1degree Celsius
lalala i dun care tooo =)

meaningful hahahahaha

2009-07-06T01:07:00.001+08:00

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of
who I am when I am with you.
我愛你不是因為你是誰，而是我在你面前可以是誰。

2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is,
won't make you cry.
沒有男人或女人是值得你為他流眼淚，值得的那一位，不會要你哭。

3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you
want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with
all they have.
那人不是你所想般愛你，但不代表那人不是全心全意地愛你。

4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and
touches your heart.
一個真正的朋友是向著你伸手，觸動你心靈的人。

5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right
beside them knowing you can't have them.
掛念一個人最差的方式，就是你坐在他身旁，而知道你不能擁有他。

6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never
know who is falling in love with your smile.
就算你不快樂也不要皺眉，因為你永不知道誰會愛上你的笑容。

7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person
you may be the world.
在世界裡你可能只是某人，但對某人你可能是全世界。

8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't
willing to waste their time on you.
不要花時間在一個不會花時間在你身上的人。

9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before
meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the
person, we will know how to be grateful.
可能神要我們在遇到那位對的人之前先遇上一些錯的人，讓我們遇到那位對先生/對小姐時懂得珍惜。

10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it
happened.
不要因為完結而哭，要為曾經發生而微笑。

11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so
what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more
careful about who you trust next time around.
這個世界永遠也會有一些傷害你的人，你要做的就是繼續去信人和小心你下次信的人。

12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are
before you try and know someone else and expect them to
know you.
在你嘗試了解其他人和盼望其他人明白你之前，先把你自己變成一個更好的人和了解你自己。

13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you
least expect them to.
不要太努力去找，最好的東西是在你最預計不到的時候出現

truth or dare =)

2009-07-06T00:30:00.003+08:00

hahaha played truth or dare in msn wit wen,andy,jess and ken
=D
hahaha i choose more truth then dare..
hahahaa
seriously have fun playing
c c c c i told u am back to my old self
=)
wakakaka
jess wat a surprise it is =)
hahahaha
toooooo bad i wont love u
but if i really do
i will give up
cause i know long distance never work
=)
i might go for anyone haha
u can say am flirting or wat
=D
i agreed on wat u said seriously =)
wakaka..
for dis moment till de say u left my ans is yes
so once u left its game over olrite?
wakakaka
since u waiting for uni so dun worry u gonna stay here lo hahaha
labbb yaaa =)

new phone =)

2009-07-05T18:16:00.002+08:00

wakakaka
dad bought me a new phone
lalalala
jess =)
idk why,how and when it happened..
may be jus a sudden at least i let go dis
and carry on =)
i still wanna say thanks
thanks for being der for me whenever i need u..
=)
dun think so much ok!
i didnt fall for u..
my heart still occupied by her haha
i noe am being lame dis days
but =)
am jus hyperactive
wakakakaka
i found back de old me!
hahaha
talk rubbish wit me and i will end up making it a joke =)
love me or not its up to u
dats my style
and it will remain
wakakaka
am no longer excited bout skul reopening
owh ya jess
bout Wen
i guess i have to think twice.. =)
i might fall for her and might not
she jus sweet HAHAHAHAH okay am seriously JOKING =DDD
OMG!
am crazyy =)))
hyperactive<333

am crazyyy

2009-07-05T15:15:00.002+08:00

lalalalala
someone deleted her blog liao
lol
may be u dun wan let me read lo..
LOL
lalalalalalala
yesh 2moro skul reopen le..
lol
am sick
real sick
but i will still go to school 2moro
i dun care
seriously
i tho i was about to die
ol de memories came to my mind in a sudden yest
i was stupid enough dat i didnt fight back
may be i've promised i wont fight so i didnt fight back..

i feel lyk staying alone right now
dun wan let dao ppl find me
LOL
been thinking so much ever since morning till now
seriously promise me u wil take care
and yes its time for me to let got de feeling le..
i do hope v remain as wat v are last time la..
de silly and de bendan

lol

2009-07-05T14:37:00.001+08:00

hmm
jess i've said stop involving in dis prob
how de hack u appear jus now?
LOL
i noe robert soong saved me
soo?
i rather die wa!!
no points for me to stay here!

current mood ; confuse

2009-07-04T22:49:00.002+08:00

i seriously dunno wat i wan in life..
wow i found smth lols
smth which i used to write..
lalala i wont post it out
i wish i never step out to dis earth
i rather have myself in pain then my friends
friends to me are important
nothing in earth can even change a friendship and yet
i seriously dun wan anything happen to my friends
i might be invisible in u guys eyes
BUT who cares
at least u guys made trouble am de1 who save u guys
lol
lalalalalalallalaa
imy
hais

2009-07-04T22:00:00.002+08:00

jess juts take off your fucking hand from dis prob
i dun wan any of my fren included
not even ur couz dey ol
so stay away from me dis few days
dey wan me die
ok
i will let dem hit till i die..
i told ya be4 dey bu suang me liao de la..
here's a chance for dem to hit
and my life aint WORTH at all..
so JUST FUCKING SHUT UP LA JESS!
i've got enuff pain in heart
so i dun my on my death!

2009-07-04T14:56:00.002+08:00

lalalala
could not sleep much =(
idk whyyyy keep wake up
may be cause of de dream LOL
sien
i wan a newspaper right now!!! zzzzz

2009-07-03T23:57:00.002+08:00

shit shit shit
been a game freak dis few dayss =(
hate to stop liaoooo...
play dao morning chai sleep GENG!
wakakaka
jess i cant stop my self from being sad
i wish dat smile was back once again on me
i dunno wat happen to me
i wanna play badminton to cheer myself
lalalala
i cant face basketball anymore
been sitting and look at de ball den memories popped out in a sudden
well i could not resist to stop de memory it made me smile for dat sec and yet
i told myself dis will be de last time am thinking bout it..
i wanna sprain my ankle again
so wat sports oso knot play liao (Y)
do me a favor hao ma?
txt me den i will tell u wat to do..
thanks lots jess
noe u wan secondhand serenade de songs
will send to u thru mail de..
hopefully it work
if not u got to take ur pendrive here
wakaka
am spamming dose songs since afternoon till now almost 12hours liao =D
woohoo
now 12.04am
and its sat
AND YESH! i pray skul reopen soon
i wan busy myself up!
so i wont think so muchhh
lalalala
i love spamming brudirect!
hahaha
lots of jerk derr
owhh am included cause am 1 of de jerk <3
hurmmmpp

u u u u u!
ur not de reason for my leaving la..
==
urmm
i never hate u duhh
i jus idk why i love u dat much nia..
lalala
u can ignore me de..
cause am used to dose days without mc u oledi
leaving my phone to a corner look at it when i got msg n calls
and finally i can get off myself from my phone
thanks alot

love dis songs =D

2009-07-03T23:31:00.000+08:00

I'm staring at the glass in front of me,
is it half empty of our wins or of all you've given me.
I know I've been selfish,
I know I've been foolish,
but look through that
and you will see,
I'll do better, I know,
Baby, I can do better.

If you leave me tonight, I'll wake up alone,
don't tell me I will make it on my own,
don't leave me tonight,
this heart of stone will sing till it dies
if you leave me tonight.

Sometimes I stare at you while you are sleeping,
I listen to your breathing,
amazed how I somehow managed to
sweep you off your feet girl,
your perfect little feet girl
I took for granted what you do.
But I'll do better, I know
Baby, I can do better.

If you leave me tonight, I'll wake up alone,
don't tell me I will make it on my own,
don't leave me tonight,
this heart of stone will sing till it dies
if you leave me tonight.

And don't you know my heart is open, oh,
it's bringing on the fight,
and I've got this feeling,
that everything's alright,
and don't you see,
I'm not the only one for you
but you're the only one for me.

If you leave me tonight I'll wake up alone,

(stay)If you leave me tonight,
(close) I'll wake up alone,
(don't)don't tell me I will
(go)make it on my own,
(stay)don't leave me tonight,
(close)this heart of stone
(don't) will sing till it dies
(go)if you leave me tonight.
Don't leave me tonight

2009-07-03T23:21:00.002+08:00

i hate fever!
hate hate hate
i wanna go town
i wanna go beach
i wanna go mall =D * moviess *
waiting for my dad to get back n beg him dun transfer
wootz
dis 3hours i changed to another human and yesh finally
i didnt give up
i learn to be strong and fight back
lol
owhh
jess do help me tel kenny
he wanna fight jiu come!!
since he is de 1 who bu suang me
den come la..
he has de right to hit me
come chop me oso can!

2009-07-03T19:16:00.002+08:00

jess
thanks alot
ur a great friend indeed
somehow i will still treat u as a friend not anymore than that
ur my x and u should noe how i face my relation de la..
owh yaaa
someone lyk u ehh
go go go accept liao
hahaha
as for AhWen part
i reli dunno how to handle..
she lyk me so long liao who also noe la..
hahaha
but seriously her sudden appear made me shock
eh waitt
yest when am drunk did she kissed me?
cause jim was teasing me bout dat
and FUCK i dun wan her to get close to me..
to ans ur ques
idk i need how long to forget
been staying home alone and think liao
may be its time
my dad going to transfer me to bandar somewhere next week
i hope dose time i can make it..
seriously i dun wanna transfer
i miss her!LALALALALA
shit!i have to wake up and leave!
stop dreaming lyk shit!
pain will remain as pain
once pain is gone everything will be fine
u going hosp later to c ur couz*my chouuu dadii?*
hope she came awake soon so i can have lumut house key
and spam my day der
drive as much as i can
have accident to death oso nvm
as long as dun let any1 noe jiu cna liao
i wont be on msn la..anything rpy on ur blog and i wil rpy on mine

2009-07-03T14:24:00.000+08:00

No Pain,No Gain… Accept the Pain, Future will be Fruitful… Don't feel the work you are doing is pain, because there will be always a reason for that pain or work. So face the pain, for the pain you face, there will be definitely happiness a head.

The Moment you are in Tension
You will lose your Attention
Then you are in total Confusion
And you will feel Irritation
Then you will spoil personal Relation
Ultimately, you won't get Co - Operation
Then you will make things Complication
Then your blood pressure may raise Caution
And you may have to take Medication
Instead, understand the Situation
And try to think about the Solution
Many problems will be solved by Discussion
This will work out better in your Profession
Don't think it's my free Suggestion
It's only for your Prevention
If you understand my Intention
You will never come again to Tension

2009-07-02T05:07:00.002+08:00

if i can dun hurt myself anymore
i will
but de prob is
de old useless sucker is back
de1 dat loves cutter de..
lol
u can dun care me..
dose cut is remind me to stay awake and dun fall again
stupid i noe..
but who cares
its better not to care me
i dun wan u to feel useless too!
its not ur prob
its my own prob!

Jess

2009-07-01T23:00:00.003+08:00

Jess
THANKS alot for de memories
and yesh am waiting for de confirmation for sultan's cup!
i wanna play badlyyy damn badlyyyyy
come find me later luu
am at homee
noe u got my house key
so jus come la..
need u to cheer me toooo
and i wan my ICE-CREAM!
and my jersey!!!!
wooohoooo
owh ya jess come overnite lo..
i need u to wake me up damn early 2moro need to play bball wakakaka
i wont on my msn yeahh
leave it dead der..

haiz

2009-07-01T18:35:00.001+08:00

haizzzz
lost ol my feeling le!
even in basketball
FUCK!
wat de heck should i do?
i wanna play for sultan cup!!
lyk seriously i wan!!!!!!!
fuck!

past brings memory

2009-06-30T23:49:00.003+08:00

idk weather ur reading or not
but who cares
cause onli 3 ppl can read my blog
wakakaka
wow!
been hurting my self so much!
am loving cutter!
WAKAKAKA
haven play cutter so long already and now
thanks for being me back dis life!
i will break my 2years back record for 53cuts
i will made dis cuts on my whole hand
i dun care what i will get
but dis is wat i leave for myself
a memory for myself
I HATE BEING IGNORE!
and FUCK!
6days no rpy mc!fuck la..
act happy every time!
i should stop acting happy!
being what i should
no one will care bout me soon
real soon
i will take back dat cigarette and smoke!
and ruin my future!
whatever happen
i cause it myself
and Jess,
i've send a msg to u liao
de ans u wan u to ans
i hope u will be happy too
and yes for dis 1mth u stay here be4 u go back i give u my whole self
fuck ol u wan!
ur my ex and i treat u how i treat my friends and of course not to dat ex!
u still have ur sexy look olrite
dun worry!
nth gonna change laa
wakaka
but den am sorry i dun love u but i seriously felt for her oledi
and i noe dats a death move!
how de fuck should i get off
txt me when u c dis..
love ya as a friend =D
and yesh to someone!
i still love u badly!
and i will try to give up loving u after dis secs..
loving u was not as hard as loving mc
but
loving u gave me learn so much things
ignoring become parts of we human
but betraying will appear in human rights
i wont say much
things i will only know by my own
as long as i support every single of u
wont let any gangster hit dao u guys
cheers

2009-06-29T21:14:00.002+08:00

this what i really felt.
fuck!i felt like shit right now!
kena ignore by you and friends.
fuck la!
i think its time to let me leave right now.

..........................
................
.....

nothing in world that will realize me leaving
not a seconds about me.
by the time i left,
no one will ever remember me.
running away could not get off everything from my heart
but i just want people around me
to be happy and forget me.
love is selfish
but i cant be selfish cause
i had lost.
i wont trust love anymore.
i rather die
so no one will remember me.
next coming place for me to stay is
Paris..
and soon
i will leave the world.
who ever want hit me
just come and hit where ever you like
my life is meaningless now
so let it be
if i had a chance between staying with you alone for few hours and gather with friends
i rather have you alone and tell you every single things in my heart
now
its lost..
every single thing is lost.....
your the only only one that i cant let go.
take care every one! =)
tick tock and tadaa..
i will lost anytime.

jzz

2009-06-28T15:10:00.002+08:00

Jess specially for u dek..
wakakaka
i wont not dare to tell u in msg neither chatting
so i jus say here la..
urmm
jus let me go la..
i noe u love me
but i dunno why and how come i fall bu dao for u..
i jus feel v are good friends
i noe wat ever shit i said now will hurt u..
am sorry..
am not a good person u seriously have to let go me..
and give up..
=D
cheer jzz
v are still friends and yesh v still can msg n chat =)

decision made!

2009-06-28T01:03:00.002+08:00

thanks to someone's comment
i've set my mind
If I had a chance to say I LOVE YOU once again,I will do it but its way too late now.
I had choose to hide and I meant it!
letting people hit just now,
I felt nothing
not even a pain on my body.
what I actually though of is only you and your freedom
I should keep everything to myself.
yes,you might thought am regretting in whatever am doing
but the truth is am not
I just want you to be happy and me back to the sucker me..
take care
I will leave and no one could ever find me.

unhappy?

2009-06-27T19:51:00.002+08:00

ever since last nite at miri
my worst worst worst thing was to pretend to be fine and yet am not fine at ol!
playing how excited games i felt more unhappy
i cant feel my self no longer..
de happy yet crazy de me was lost
idk wat reason for dat
but its lost!
i really wan everything to be back to its on!
esp on u.....
dats what i hope only!
lol
stupid mee
i seriously noe i will hide myself from society liao!
dat would be damn great waa
noone else will ever fall for me..
and i will be alone for dis time being..
i do hope dis extended holidays will really help me to recover myself!
and yes,i still love you..i cant give up neither..
idk wat i should do..
but i had made an agreement btw myself..

i miss u =(

2009-06-25T00:14:00.003+08:00

hurmppp
idk why de whole day i thought of u only lol..
hurmpp
i cant explain wats in my heart right now..
seriously dont..
i feel great when i saw u
but in de other hand,i noe i should not feel great..
i have choose to let it flow
so i have to!wat de fuck am i really thinking?
lol

boohooo
i love dis
"sometimes,loving some1 is not as easy as u think!!
loving some1 is ol bout acceptance,never tolerance..
Loving is when both party is ready to give in..
a quarrel will happen if 1 party is unwilling to give in..
tears will den exist in ur life
there's many many many more to understand bout loving a some1
when u choose to love some1 and not to give up,
de ppl choose to let go..
is not bout whether to fight 4own love,
is whether ur ready to go thru olsorts of obstructions"

"Climb up a mountain,
fly off a cliff,
drown in the ocean,
freeze my legs stiff,
give everything,
including my last breath,
always forgive,
but never regret,
cry my eyes out,
even go blind,
change my heart and my mind,
for you I'd all this and more,
because it is you
I love, cherish, and adore."

hurmp 'Hate Me,Kill Me'=> will never forget dis!

memories

2009-06-23T21:26:00.000+08:00

wow!
loving dose memories from beachhh..
=D

letting it flow

2009-06-18T18:09:00.003+08:00

was thinking during my whole game in bball court at way home
am choosing to let it flow..
dis might hurt alot
but its de best choice for u..
nahh who cares bout de hurt i've got..
i bet ur gonna stay away from me
so i've know about dis be4 dis decision is made..
i will stop blogging till i feel lyk..
to me,
once its lost it will never return.

my quote said "if it is yours,it will remain as yours.If it is not yours,its never yours.So what's the point for chasing it and result end up like stupid?"

"mistake are part of being human,so if you get something wrong,don't get depressed"
well i do agree wit it but now..LOL

i will seriously fuck off from your life.
i dont want u to get hurt anymore.....
once again
pain will remain as pain,
tears will remain as a drop of water
and
u will remain in my heart.
take care!

==

2009-06-18T12:45:00.002+08:00

letting avthing flow right now..
no caring bout wat happen is de best
avthing remain in my heart i guess
gonna concentrate in av single things =D
esp on u*i guess*
hurmpp
boredddddddddddddddd =(
save me!
wanna go jogging
wanna go badminton
wanna go basketball
LOL
feel lyk wanna c u again
LOL

crazyy

2009-06-17T13:23:00.001+08:00

am crazyyy
sot liao i guess
lol
haven been smiling ever since i woke up!
lol
bet i miss u too much le..
lalalalalalala
ignore me de best so u wont change ur mood
duhh!
going tt soon
ciaoz

imy!

2009-06-15T17:17:00.002+08:00

hurmpp
someone!
i miss u i miss u i miss u
haiiiiiiiiisss
=(

imy!

2009-06-15T17:17:00.000+08:00

hurmpp
someone!
i miss u i miss u i miss u
haiiiiiiiiisss
=(

hurmp

2009-06-15T12:56:00.002+08:00

if i was given a chance to stop de time last nite
i will stop it
and never gonna resume it..
=D

leg hurt

2009-06-12T14:21:00.001+08:00

OWH GOD!my left leg hurts
cant really walk properly liao!
darn it!!
helpp!!==
haiiss
nvm let it be
wont die wit it de la!

headache

2009-06-12T11:03:00.003+08:00

shit!headache since yest =(
didnt even get any better!shit!
guess am going to be sick again.......
yest went for table tennis single.
lol!
was suppose to play on a SERIOUS match
but end up
playing screw and smack
missed almost ol my smack..
=D
kakax..
after tabletennis
went to bball court to look for my bro dey ol..
lols
at nite go out wit dem again
hahahha
best supper ever!
=DDD
slept at around 1am i guess..
opps =)
den morning wake up around 7.30
hahah but could not wake up jus lay on de bed coz of my headache =(
went to skul around 8.30 anddd am late HAHAHA who careess
=D
great student im =DD
right after my match went out with wanting & jeff haha
hang out at mee stall for an hour lol!
den now am home!and headache is killing me!
owh darn it! ==
later gonna have tt den have to go jeff house ==

lastly
JEFF GOO,HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

ihyyy

2009-06-10T22:24:00.001+08:00

awww
someonee
i hope u noe who ur..
=x
i h y!!!!!!!!!!! =x
der wont be any chance for me to say again so
dis might be de last time i will say dis..
IHY!

finallyyy

2009-06-10T12:24:00.001+08:00

finally 2moro will be last exam =D
yayyy poa 1 kakaxxx
hmmm
maths 2 was hard!
damn it!!
malay was okay
but when i came out of exam hall
mood goes down
lols
dunno whyyy =(
2moro will be pingpong wish me luckk=s

=D

2009-06-09T12:39:00.001+08:00

wohooo
POA 2 was easyy
haha almost all account =D
final account 35 marks =D
<333
kakax..
english 1 was okayy
haha
topic :" money is everything " do you agree
HAHAH i dun agree =D

yawnnnnnnnn

2009-06-08T19:33:00.002+08:00

YESH!
finally all 3 sci subjects are overrr
=D
now left wit POA,maths 2,malay 2,english 1
=DDD
hurmpppp
i miss someoneeeeee

2day maths was urm
hai hao..
kakax..
den bio was alright too..
nth big deal on it..
shit
am still having my fluuu =(
helppppp =(

smile

2009-06-07T00:46:00.000+08:00

silly girl,
cheer olriteee?
am owes here to be ur listener..
dun feel sad
and dun think liao okayy?
trust me n ur self
positive thinkingg =z
olrite lu u went to sleep liao i had to go too =D
cheer olrite?

mood jus sucks

2009-06-05T22:44:00.003+08:00

lol
mood wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy down 2day
cool yoz all pain come on de same day
fuck la!
diuuuuuuuuuuuuu
nvm la..
keep it for my self better

silly
cheer up=s
dun wanna c u lyk dis..
owwhh smth for ya..
nahh

=D

2009-06-04T21:24:00.002+08:00

silly
haha dunno u got read my blog or not de la..
IHY meanss
I Hit You
HAHA no la..
smth dat start wit 'H' =D
blekksss
think dao liao jiu ask meeee
KAKAKAX

dreamm

2009-06-04T18:41:00.002+08:00

awwww
CRAZY DREAM! but its nice at some part! =D
hmmm
i hate dogs nowww
amaths exam 2moro its harddd
while doing de 1st page it was great den when i flip to de 2nd page
stunned for few minutes
lyk why so hard..
LOL
av leave no.10 blank..cause its hard
den till de last page it was easy
but time left 15 minutes
how to finish orhh!
hahha
next exam physic

MR.JUSTIN BACK OFF FROM MY LIFEEEE!U SUCKS AT PHYSIC!kakax

uuuuuuuu =s

2009-06-03T22:20:00.002+08:00

boooo
i miss some oneeeeeeee
=S
alrightt
chem 2 was hard!av1 said dat
except for my bro i guess
chem 1 was easy and trickyy
=D
malay 1 was COOL
haha finish it in 30 minss
once finish could not stop thinking bout u
hope u noe who ur =/
2moro amaths will be another tough paper
but it wil be good for us!

sillllyyyyy =s
luck 2moro la..kakax
get an A in ur MATHS hahaha blekkkss
=s

tada offf n miss u =s

sec.4sciiii

2009-06-02T13:58:00.001+08:00

SEC 4SCI!!
GOOODDDD LUCK 2morooooo
=D
chem will be our best subject
HAHAHA
bowh 2moro exam at hall
and i'm SICK!
darn it!
might not have exam in de hall wit u guyss
shit!
i wanna join u guys
pray i can join u guys =D
\m/
STUDY SMART PPL =D

=ssssss

2009-06-01T20:36:00.000+08:00

silly,GOOD LUCK in ur exam on thursday hahaha..=D

exammm =s

2009-05-30T13:49:00.003+08:00

exam next wednesdayyy haiiiss
1st paper oledi chem hahah i love chem <3333333333 =DDDD
am boredddd gonna go touch up my bio later loooooo
seriously dun lyk bioooo hahahah
will work hard on damn bio de blekkkss
n u u u u u u u i miss =DD
hahaha bet u will be reading hahaha
bahhh c my exam time table la :

3/6/09 Chem 2 7.30-9.00 =D
Chem 1 9.30-10.30
Malay 1 11.00-12.30

4/6/09 Add.Maths 7.30-9.30 =s
Eng 2 10.30-12.00*finally =D*

6/6/09 Phy 2 7.30-9.15
Phy 1 10.30-11.30 =DD

8/6/09 Maths 1 7.30-9.30
Bio 10.00-12.15

9/6/09 POA 2 7.30-9.30
Eng 1 10.30-12.00

10/6/09 Maths 2 7.30-10.00 *damn longggg*
Malay 2 10.30-12.00

11/6/09 POA 1 7.30-8.30 =D

boooo last day end at 8.30 hahahha den afternoon pingpongg =/
luck guys in ur exammm blekkks

friends?

2009-05-25T19:26:00.002+08:00

what are F.R.I.E.N.D?
that guy said " Few Relation In Earth Never Dies "
well it do make sense
BUT
it only make sense to true friends.
people or i can said my old close friends,
do you really remembered how much i helped you guys LAST time?
i do not care what i had to been through
and i help you guys
well if you think am the one changing
then tell me
what's the point that i'm changing?
you never know how much i had protect you guys.
you never know how much pain i had to go through every seconds.
well to you,
AM ALWAYS THE ONLY ONE WHO IS WRONG
betraying.left over,everything
it had happen to me now
its not once.
its many many many times
friends could be the only one that support you through out your life
not a relation
you will not feel how pain it was
and you will now know
until the day came.
friends can be the one who is helping you
friends can be the one that help you solve every single problem.
but now
YOU TAKE ME AS A SHIT
and still i never regret from doing this shit.
i take you as my true friends
and it will still remain as.

p/s : if you want to be a sucker then be a sucker.
i will tell you that i will protect you this sucker CAUSE i take you as my friends and in my
list friends are IMPORTANT!not to who ever but to EVERYONE!
friends might not be there when your falling down but friends will be there to pull you up!
friends are special,so important that they make the world go round.

licenseeeee

2009-04-22T13:42:00.002+08:00

hmmmm cant wait for my license ehh =DD
hahahha 17th birthday was olrite =D
celebrate wit tuit mates on sunday
some how on de actual day was fun at skul nia..
smth bad happen at nite..
mi ba =DD
hahahaha
counting down for license =DDDDDDDD

birthdayyy

2009-04-08T21:50:00.002+08:00

counting downnn
day by day..
time pass real damn fast..
hahhaa
wat i actually cant wait is my license..
=D
it could be de only thing i'll enjoy de most..
12more dayss =DD
bball match wit blue house on de 1st day is my weakness..
lolsss

sis happy birthday =DDD

2009-03-19T21:45:00.002+08:00

SIS happy 17th birthday =DD
haha i will surely miss getting high wit u at mi's house =DD
hahahahhahahahaha
have funss =DD

hmmmmmm

2009-03-19T14:29:00.002+08:00

last day of skul..
lolss..
seriously skipped de last 4 lessonss..
okay i noe am lz..
but am jus tired..
=D
think i seriously did damn badly in bio..
lolss..
gonna burst up avthing in hols..
happy hols av1..
n happy studying to ol form4sss

asser

2009-03-09T12:44:00.003+08:00

being a jerk over a jerk
is fucking ass stupid!
i dun mind if u dislike us or wat ever shit it is..
wat i reli can help i help..
if bandar ppl wan come fight
COME LA..
i dun fucking scare!!
bandar ppl never owns a gang!!
as for us..
u can never expect much from u..
i've born to be a gangster
so i will end up telling u guys to stop ur fucking linc-ness
i dun mind u besong me or wat ever fucking things it is..
coz wat ever happen now is not a solo event!
its a team!
so fucking ppl who is out from our skul
pls fuck off!

bored =D

2009-02-24T14:22:00.002+08:00

boooo
belated birthday to syasya n fionee =D
HAHAHA
hmmm 2day no lesson for us..
for lyk i dunno wat reason
HAHAHA
xDD
yest marching went out well
hahaha
we did our best..
=D
am start to missing ol de fun v had..
=DD
slept de whole morning jus now haha
am tired yoz
=DDD
missing uuuuu =/
booo am going to get my ass ready for tuit now..
haha
xDD

chou mii =D

2009-02-19T16:09:00.003+08:00

CHOU MIII HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY
HAVE A GREAT ONE TODAY
loveeee mii =D

tag

2009-02-19T16:02:00.002+08:00

Rules:
1. You must answer all the questions.
2. Tag 5 people to do this quiz.

1. What's your full name?
` Lai See Mui

2. Do you hate someone at this moment?
` yaaaa de big ass..=D

3. What makes you hate her/him?
` copy cat,never say sorry when she/he did wrong smth..

4. You love your family?
` of courseeeee

5. List 5 names of your friends that you love.
` mii,fishhh,emmeline,kangaroo,sis =D

6. Why do you love them?
` besties of my bestiess =DDD

7. Who do you prefer, your dad or mom?
` bothhh =D

8. Did someone make you cry this week?
` dis week?nahhh last weekk haha

9. When was the last time you make your friend laugh?
` baru taa =DD

10. Do you like someone at this moment?
` =D

11. What was the last present you received?
` urmmm i dunnoo..

12. Are you missing someone?
` yaaaa =D

13. What was the last message did you received from your ex-girlfriend/boyfriend?
` idk?hahahhahaha

14. What was the last comment you received?
`somehow i dun rmb hahahahxDD

15. What was your wish for your birthday this year?
` hahaha anything will do as long as its good =D

i tag:
av1 who see dis =D

yawnnnnnn

2009-02-08T13:30:00.002+08:00

been lz to updates le..
hahaha anyway am lzzz haha
=DDD
okay get to business LOLS
v form4sss are lyk marching for national day
which are lyk
fun =D in skipping lessons
=DD
hahahhaha
omg!i need to get my ass in prac amaths now haha
2moro amaths test ==
hurmppp
anyway happy birthdya leonard!

taggs

2009-01-30T10:53:00.004+08:00

1. Tag 9 friends
. MICHELLE LAI
who ever who wanna do this tag =D

2. Choose your answer and leave your comment in a bracket for each.

1. Would you rather be blind or be deaf?
` blind =D (if am deaf i wont not noe how de world sounds lyk )

2. Would you rather lose an arm or a leg?
` leg(at least i still have my hands n brain to cont my studies =DDDDDD hahah )

3. Would you rather become uglier or stupider?
` ugly of course hahah =DDD

4. Would you rather be more rich or more attractive?
` rich i can get wat ever i wan =D

5. Would you rather be blonde or brunette?
` urmmm brunette..=D

6. Would you rather have a third eye in the middle of your head, or a horn in the middle of your head?
` haha third eye would be better for me..=D

7. Would you rather it be winter forever or summer forever?
` bothhhh =DDDD

8. If you could only eat one thing for the rest of your life, would you rather it be sweet or salt?
` sweeett =DDDD

9. If you could choose a super power, would you rather be able to fly or move objects?
` hahhaa fly of course..its free man =DD

10. If you had to be an animal, would you rather live in the ocean or on the land?
` ocean =DDD

1. Do you think you're hot?

- nahhhh =D.

2. Upload a favourite picture of you.

3. Why do you like that picture?

- coz i love it =D

4. When was the last time you ate pizza?

- wow few few few months back

5. The last song you listened to?

- i'm yours jason mraz

6. What are you doing now besides this?

- facebook-ing

7. What name do you prefer besides yours?

-haha i still prefer seemui =D

8. Tag 5 people.

- MICHELLE LAI

- shikin

- nadiah

- sariyah

- joan

9. Who is number 1?

- my couz =D

10. Number 2 is having a relationship with who?

- single i guess

11. Say something about number 5.

- haha de1 which i owe smth to =D.

12. How about number 4?

- she is my kawan =D

13. Who is number 3?

- nadiah =D x-prefect HAHAHAHHA

1. Copy badge "2008 cute's blogger Award" above and place it in your blog.

copied, paste and im done. (:

2. Who gave this award to you ?

fiona ==

3. Every blogger must provide 10 hobbies of yours, before you give the award to others

(you've been tagged)

1. i love sports =D

2. i lovemy kawans =D

3. i love hanging out

4. i love facebook-ing

5. i like blogging * sometimes*

6. i loveeeeeeeeee to sleep.. =D

7. love fizzy drinks =D

8. love de food my mum cooks =DDD

9. i HATE JUSTIN N RIJI

10. am being hurt ol de time =D hahahhahaa

4. Choose 10 people you give this award to.

List thier names :

1. michelle lai

2. joan

3. sariyah

4. nikki

5. michelle

6. syasya

7. nadiah

8.kresta

9. leon

10. shikin.

CNY

2009-01-26T11:28:00.002+08:00

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
its cnyyy hahah
=DDDDD
yest weather was not good at ol..
it was raining ol de way from afternoon till 12.25am
haha
when it stopped raining
av1 around my village
is lyk putting off de fireworks
wowww
hahahaha i was lyk sitting up de truck wit my bro n my couz
hahaha of course we are far away from
de other
de best place for us coz we are surrounded wit fireworks hahaha..
my uncle put off lyk 2box or 3 hahaha
i dun rmb..
ol i rmb was
i have funss =DDD
booo gtg get angpaosss =DDDDD
anyways to ol chinese
HAPPY NIU YEAR =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

skipped skul =DDD

2009-01-24T10:00:00.002+08:00

yayyy i skipped skul TODAY!!!!
hahahhaha am suppose to go skul but due to my CNY mood
i skip skul
hahahahahaha
its 10.02am now
haha
i should not wake up so early but i've got no choice
i had to clean my room
hahaha
itssss soooo damn messy hahahha
xDD
owhhh i'll be skipping skul again on wed
hahaha who will actually go on de 3rd day of CNY
hahahahha
boooooooooooooooooo
am boreddddd leeeeeeee...
hahahahahah
nvm am going to clean my room now hahaha tada =DDDDDDDDDD